Is laying off FA for a while.

I've kindof been emotionally compromised in that even I have tried to talk to Erin, I will admit that I provoked her, but today I decided to ask her a question only to come home to find out the good news
She's been suspended, bad, all the parody art on her has been removed under the assumption it is somehow hate art, which none of them ever was.
I felt horrified that even my journals and when I posted the question, which was a well thought out religious question on who would Erin protect more than herself..... I wounded up having that deleted too.
Which ultimately crushed me.
Without a response and the admins warned me doing anything further would provoke me getting a suspension but the thing that got me was that nothing I said in the journal was really and truly about hatred, just the truth and what I thought it was getting her religious wise.
But since she's suspended I'm laying off it for a while.
I'm just going to lay back and try to relax and take care of other business, maybe make some videos? Pictures? Something.
After seeing what this girl has done and gone so far as to do, I'm not sure if I can stand with any fanbrat, especially when she's the epitome of them, like Chris Chan... and others.... which I won't and other..... yeah I'm pretty much worn at this point.
Been going at this for a week now Bugsy says.
But to know my gesture to help her.... was denied, it felt more like my hand was slapped from helping her or saving her, just.... you know...
I wounded up angry at first... punching things then crying and then I said when she wasn't worth my tears that my tears were for all those she had condemned to hell, so that their souls if deemed worthy, would go to heaven, because good people go to heaven and no one should go to hell unless they've done bad things like this.

I've been wondering if I have a heart still by doing these comics helping or trying to help people to smile, while also providing the truth on them.
And then when I tried to help Erin like that and she denied it..... crushed me, she's denied help from so many people, hurt so many people, and yet not even a fellow Christian, or several can save her soul.
Maybe I'm just acting out of a hurt heart worn from all this. I'll just work on my page and friends here and FA.
And if this gets taken down.... then screw it.