I'm living back at my dads place for a few days only
I have closed a chapter in my life I have dubbed my life at a motel
What I have done there
Dealt with my further changes of being a werewolf
What I should've done
Punch my dad for all his slander against his own religion and god
What I'm glad or somewhat glad I've not done
Not punched him -.- yeah its an iffy
Living on my own and walking around more freely enjoying free wifi, buying my own food and supplies at my own expense and howling exploring what I want whenever I wished.
Not proud of.
The fact I got in here when someone needed it possibly more than I did
Why? Well simple, while I enjoyed a quick bath last night I realized much to what Dad stated about how desperate my current condition is, I know and well know for a fact that perhaps there are people out there who can't enjoy the luxury of a hot bath like I can at that moment, the money (even little) to buy food, or even afford (even if little again) To buy a roof over their head.
One may say damn modesty issues to the greatest of extent here but I say bs.
However I will state this, as Dad drove me to the projects I told God the only way I'd accept this, was if it was just to my liking, and it turns out it was either this place or an effectionsy place.
However when I walked in, turned out, the place was pristine perfect. A spot to watch the sunrise I always wanted, a place where Lina could be with me, a spot where I have more space than I could dream of you name it.
I almost knelt and cried at how beautiful it was, but stopped myself when I thought how selfish I was, maybe I did deserve it, if I didn't, lina would suffer, so would I even worse.
God answered my prayers but I felt in both a good and bad way, by making me cheat.
Still, all of this is happening so quick and fast, in a matter of days I will move there set up wifi and be able to work better with my cat and be able to keep my promise not only to her but Bugsy as when I came here Sam showed me the greyhound and guess what, if I purchase the ticket I have enough to buy it ahead of time.
There you go, things are finally looking up for me. I can't believe it myself. I've been through so much this past year.
I've had hordes of haters after me doing whatever making me feel low, I've also been bashed by my own father and had my boyfriend called things by him.
Also I've had to deal with deaths of friends and other things.
Its not been easy.
And yet I can't help but feel sorry for the real person in first place, what was his/her story? All everyone states is, maybe he/she dropped out along with the next person.
and my dreams have barely been a comfort as until last night when I set free someone only for them to open a gateway to a white door and woke up one minute exact before my alarm went off then got up and finished packing whatever was left in my room and after dealing with the projects packing whatever was left in my motel room that I have lived in for nearly an entire year, I now consider this chapter closed.
Heck I even have a garden!
Sure there's no carpet but I'll make due then I'll be going to see Bugsy as soon as I'm settled in then after that.. well I'm building more plans, only those closest know those plans.
Thanks to all my friends who supported me all this time I couldn't've made it this far without the aid of any of you.. in fact what would I be without people like you. ^~^
Also tonight I'm going to see
Guardian of the Galaxy
Also it turns out I forgot to work on someones necklace oh man I'm working on it as much as I can while here at Dads but unfortunately, since I had to pack quick, all my stuff is in a lot of various boxes. XD
Also if I'm not online for several days its cause I've still got a LOT to do for my house.
which includes setting up wifi, washing machine and dryer, moving a lot of furnature, uh lets see, also a bunch of other things also I don't pay for electricity so that's a major plus but I don't use much anyways. Plus I've got several appointments everything is happening so quick and fast its hard to keep up but I'm trying!!!!